closest to Z

We were all a little slow getting up this morning and feeling a little rushed. I was making Bob's coffee in the french press while he was making lunches and the girls were getting dressed in their room. The oven timer went off and I went to press Bob's coffee. As it started beeping, however, Zarah's slightly panicked sounding voice came from her room: "I didn't know we were being timed!"

Bob and/or I quickly explained, and laughed.

update!

I am starting to feel a little more calm about work. There is still way too much to do, I made a potentially really bad mistake, the mafia boss may turn on us any second now... but I am feeling a little better.

Things are going well with the girls being in town. Bob is home a whole lot more now, which I love. And of course it's great to have them here. I wish they could be with us all year. We had a hilarious time hanging out with the Hilmans last night, having dinner, being treated to DQ, showing each other silly walks, talking talking talking... It was great. They are great.

The show on Friday will be really fun I think. It will be great to see Janaki play, and really funny for me to see my sister and fiancee play together, and of course I always love to hear Bob's band. As long as I don't listen to closely to the words (I'm too easily embarassed, I don't want to hear lyrics about that sort of thing) I can have fun and dance around. It's great.

My head hurts really bad. I need to stop clenching my jaw.

dreamy

Last night I had a dream that Adam was getting married (sorry Cherise, it wasn't to you. I don't know who it was though, I never saw her), and Cherise, Michael and I were sitting at a table at his reception. Greg walked up behind us and said hello. That's right. Greg Davis! His wife was not around, but he told us the two of them had just moved back to Portland. I invited them to my wedding, and he said he would come.

So, if Greg Davis shows up at my wedding, I'm going to freak out.

Anyway, does anyone know what happened to him?

I feel like it's been far too long since I have written anything substantial, but I really don't have the time lately. So, instead of substance, lists!

Things that are bad:

Monday mornings
Being reprimanded for not doing a task I was not asked to do
47 emails, all needing at least a response, at most a several week-long project
waking up at 5:45

Things that are good:

not needing coffee anymore
medications that work quickly
breakfast
showers
the sound of rain on the skylight

Things that are fantastic:
Alex and Zarah being back in town
Family dinners
Alex and Zarah asking to do chores
Getting married in less than two months
walks to the library
dance parties

chococorn

I just ate a peice of chocolate, and now I have the aftertaste of popcorn in my mouth. Not even the taste of actual popcorn, but it's aftertaste. How weird is that?

Showtime! Friday July 1st

One week from tomorrow! Come see your friends Janaki and Bob. Many fun times for all!

ACME Southeast 8th and Main
9:00 PM

Need a cat?

My cute black cat needs to go. I just can't handle having two cats at home, there is no way I would ever think about giving up B, Bob has had that cat forever and loves him so much, I couldn't do that to him. I was the one who wanted Dasha in the first place, but I changed my mind. She is not a bad cat, she is cute, cuddly, playful, ect, but with two of us, the twins, and two cats, I might lose my mind trying to keep things clean and calm.

So, if you know anyone who wants a cat, please, let me know.

This is making me more sad than I thought it would. I think I like that cat more than I want to.

window

cabinet

Shopping. and shopping.

I am so blessed. So very blessed. Bob and I went shopping for wedding things this weekend. I got my shoes, he got his suit... and the ring. I can't believe how much the sight of that silver ring around his finger made me want to cry and laugh and run around in circles like a two year old with a popsicle. It made me so giddy and excited, I hardly knew what to do with myself. I can't wait two months (exactly two months, for those keeping track at home)... I want to be married now.

Janaki, Bryce, Bob and I all went to Winco yesterday to buy masses of cheap food. Between the mullets, the random children screaming through the aisles, and the arguing old couples, it was quite the trip.

Raaaarrrr......

I had a very odd dream last night. Very odd. In this dream I started out as a 5-year-old boy, walking down the street with my dad. I had a fishing pole.

All of a sudden I was a small dinosaur. I was in a warehouse, surrounded by larger dinosaurs. They were trying to get me, I assume to eat me. I saw a ledge in the corner and jumped on to it, wiggling myself far back against the wall. The ceiling was only a couple of inches above me, and the other dinosaurs were too big to jump onto the ledge. They were swiping at me with their claws, but couldn’t quite reach.

Another dinosaur, a dinosaur bigger than the ones attacking me, came into the warehouse, pulled me off the ledge, and ran out of the building. I wasn’t scared, I knew he was there to save me. We ran outside toward a field of tall grass. The big dinosaur threw me while he was still running, sending my little dinosaur body sliding into the grassy field. After I slid through the dirt, I stood up, and I had been launched into the future. I was that little 5-year-old boy again, carrying my fishing pole, walking behind my dad.

And that was it. What the heck was that? I was a dinosaur and a five-year-old boy in my dream! Weird...

p.s. I will be leaving for Seattle today at 1 and working from 6 am - 5 pm at a conference, without a computer friday, then going to Janaki's show (where you should be too) so I won't be able to post until Saturday. Good weekend everybody!

grades!

I got two A's, I got two A's! I was worried that, despite taking only two classes, I had not done that well. My American Family History class was particularly difficult, and a whole lot of work. It was well worth it though, I enjoyed discussing everything we read about, especially because all of our discussion was written and shared online. It was a challenge, and one that I am grateful for, despite all my whining.

And my darling dearest got straight A's as well! He had three classes and aced them all. Anyone care to join us at the Bonfire this evening for a congratulatory drink?

hey guess what?

I'm getting married!!!!! I am so excited!!!!!! I get to be the wife of Bob Ham. I am seriously one of the most privelaged women alive.

another day

another busy, tense, stressful, overwhelming day, suspiciuos of my boss, worried that at any moment this buddy-buddy, we're in this together, thanks for all of your help thing is going to dissapear and every aspect of my life, from the way I phrased that one sentence in that email all the way to my character and personality, will get torn apart. I am trying to enjoy this while I can, but I just don't trust the good will to last.

In the meantime, I have a lot to do. But not at home. Hooray for summer break, and a sweet fiancee to spend my time with, and two awesome girls to join us in two weeks... now if we could just get those groceries.

I don't believe it

They let that physco, creepy, man go, innocent on all charges. Though, I think he should be locked up in a mental institution, not necessarily in jail. Michael Jackson should not be allowed near anyone's children, including his own. He's insane...

back to work

Had a long weekend, got the girls, sent them off to their grandma's house for a couple weeks, and had to miss seeing my friend Bri in Spokane. That was dissapointing.

Now I am back at work, wicked overwhelmed again. My co-worker who spent all of Thursday crying is back today, though I am not sure for how long.

The good news is, with Bob out of school, I get to spend two evenings a week with him now, instead of none. Hooray!

Hooray!

We are going to get the girls tomorrow! Tomorrow!!!! This is great.

and more bubbles!

more bubbles...

Look! Bubbles!

A letter

Dear Friends:

I have finished my final assingments for this term. I am now school free at least until fall, more likely until winter. For you, this means: I can hang out most nights of the week, I can actually talk to you when you call me, I will probably have less moments of freakish anxiety and depression. Huzzah!

Expect a phone call, and possibly an invitation to something. I miss you all.

Sincerely,

Lalita

make it stop....

After I get done with this week of school, and next week at work, I think I will be able to relax. I think.

my bed is just over there....

I am very tired. But I am writing a paper. Thank goodness it does not have to be done tonight. It would either not happen or it would be done and make zero sense. Then my paper would sound like all of the other students in my class. That sounds mean, I realize, but I don't think they are less valuable as people because they do not write good essays. I just want to be better than them.

Stupid pride. I need sleep.

a slightly embarassing, very odd, and rather confusing story

Okay, so you all know that little mole that I have on my face, right? I mean come on, how long have you known me? You have to know what I'm talking about. That mole, right there, on my right cheek. (well, left if you are looking at me.)

So, I got a huge, embarassing, icky zit in (or on? under?) that mole. It was gross. I mean, Bob loves me and thinks the world of me, and I am pretty sure even he would admit it was gross. So, it was being gross and zitty, as they are known to do, all that icky stuff came out, it was red, painful, and started to dry up. Okay, this is all normal.

And you all know the thing about showers, right? Lots of warm moisture. Dry skin tends to get soft and come off in warm moisture. I was taking a shower last night, washing my face, and some dead, dry skin came off my face. From several places, my skin is pretty bad right now. I didn't think much of this.

Until I looked in the mirror later. That spot on my face where my mole has been my entire life was raw-skin pink. Not pink on top of the brown mole, or red all around the brown mole like it had been. Just raw-skin pink.

Where did my mole go? Will it come back? What if I want it back? I know you can get those removed, can I get one put on? I know it's just skin, it's just a mole, but it was mine, and I liked it, and I want it back.

to Bryce:

Happy Birthday!

fantastic

I had such a great weekend. Bob and I did so much nothing, it was wonderful. I love hanging out at home, hanging out. We snuggled, watched a movie, cleaned, organized, did homework, it was lovely. I am so blessed to have this man for a future husband.

I really feel like giving up

All of a sudden, I started feeling really awful. Hopeless, sad, despondant, lonely... and I started crying, and now my eyes hurt, and I am drained, and I still have so much paper to write, but I got a late start because I was throwing up cha cha cha earlier. I had such a great weekend, and now it is not so great anymore, and I don't have much time for it to become good again before I go back to work tomorrow. Lame.

Here Michael, this is for you.

strange things

Last night I was feeling very stressed out because I had another insane day at work and our dumb cats that I wish we did not have had filthied our bathroom, dining room, and table like they do every single day. So I was really upset. Then I remembered I was supposed to call my mom yesterday and didn't, so I had to call her.

I talked to her for half an hour and - here is the very weird part - I was significantly calm by the time I hung up. Talking to my mother calmed me down.

Ahh!

So freaking busy at work today!

Good News

We get to pick up these two wonderful girls on the 11th! Then it is off to their grandmas for two weeks, then with us for the rest of the summer. Hooray! I can't wait.

almost done

Busy. Tired. Tried to see Layer Cake last night but had to leave the theatre because of the violence and the sex. As Bob so aptly phrased it, that movie had everything I hate in it.

Work is crazy, boss is crazy, school is not too crazy.

I want it the term to be done and the girls to get here. Also, I just want to be married right now.

Sasquatch

Here is Matt, myself, and the pink unicorn. Matt does not usually look like he is going to kill someone. He is actually quite a nice guy.

Bobby!

Look how cute my fiancee is!

Baby Birdy

These are our birds. They never come back to the nest now, but I still see them around the power lines and trees.

Babies

From left to right: Peel, Camille, and Edward.

Unready

This is Edward. He was not ready to fly yet.