Poor sport

One of the things I love about baseball is the general absence of awful, self-absorbed, immature behavior. Admittedly, even the most gentlemanly players are incredibly overpaid and have some ridiculous allowances in their contracts, but they are nothing compared with the despicable behavior of many players in other sports.

Then, there is Alex Rodriguez.
There was his glove slapping, his recent elbowing, and now this
and this

Iron

Things I could eat instead of taking iron supplements:

46.5 bagels
21 cups of oatmeal
14 cups of spinach
46.5 hamburger patties
81 oz of clams

sleeeeeep

I am very tired, I need to take those iron pills. but also, I need to sleep. I slept incredibly deeply last night and for the first time in several weeks, I did not wake up during the night. I just didn't sleep for quite long enough. With Bob going to a show tonight, and Zarah being away at school camp, I think I can get to bed and to sleep early. Delicious.

Sugar is bad, Cherise is good

Three cheers for Cherise for finishing a tough semester at Whitman and doing what seems to be a great job of it!

Cheer!
Cheer!
Cheer!

Three boos to drinking extremely thick sugary orange flavored drink and getting your blood drawn an hour later to ensure you don't have diabetes!

Boo!
Boo!
Boo!

I did find out that I am not diabetic, I have slightly low iron, I have even lower blood pressure than ever (55 as my lower number- woah), and Simon and I are still doing well with our collective and individual sizes and heartbeats. I am so glad to have a healthy, active little guy.

the great pillow experiment

I'd read and heard about body pillows, pregnancy pillows, putting pillows between your legs, under your stomach and so on. Supposedly this would help me sleep comfortably without moving from my side to my back.

I sort of attempted a pillow between the legs and under the stomach thing once before, but it felt awkward and weird.

My sleep has been getting really bad lately, and I repeatedly end up on my back. For several nights, I woke up feeling like my head was so full of blood that it would explode, or maybe so empty of blood that it would implode.

Something had to be done. I had my doubts, especially about a body pillow, but I was desperate.

After a trip to Fred Meyer and the back of my closet, I spent about 45 minutes trying different pillow arrangements. The water pillow, the flat pillow, the regular old pillow, the regular new pillow, the body pillow, and zero pillow all had their chance.

After a lot of flopping and wiggling, I finally settled on two regular old pillows plus body pillow. I stayed on my side all night and woke up only when someone was thrashing through our recycling bin.

I still can't figure out how you'd get the stupid pillow under your stomach without being incredibly crooked, but I'm comfortable.

ick

Last night my chapstick rolled into a puddle on the floor of a public restroom.

Goodbye chapstick.

Happy 32nd Birthday Bobby!

Sunday is Bob's birthday, and since we'll be busy all weekend (baseball, opera, dinner, lunch, and his parents) he gets 'the birthday blog' a few days early.

Thank you so much for being my husband and friend and being just about the best person ever. I'm honored to be your wife and looking forward to the many years ahead that we get to be together. I love you!

today, as expressed in emoticons

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current

The weather was perfect today. It's gotten cloudy and windy, but earlier, it was perfect. Thankfully I was able to get outside for a whole hour, and I actually felt decent enough to enjoy it, and laugh uncontrollably at this pathetic old dog that kept wrapping it's leash around it's leg. It was sad, and I think I'm a horrible person for laughing, but it just looked so funny.

Still not feeling good emotionally, but what can you do? (Don't answer that, by the way. Advice just annoys me right now.)

The boy child is doing well I think, he moves a lot and keeps me awake at night. My ankles and veins are starting to swell, the heartburn continues daily, and my stomach muscles have sharp pains, but nothing is too horrible at this point. Thankfully for me Bob is amazing and does everything for us, so I get to try and take care of my icky body.

denied

These are the things in my life that have not worked out the way I wanted them to recently:

- city that I live in
- house in this city I didn't get to live in
- work situation
- school situation
- current household situation
- church community I want to be part of
- many little plans and schedules

These are the things that have worked out:
- person that I am married to
- a few weekend plans (provided they don't change, as previous weekends have)

The most important things are as I want them, but the majority of things are not, and the most recent and current things are not as I want them.

It's hard, while not getting most of what I want, to remember that I have what is best, and to actually care about that.

beautiful

I love thunderstorms. Love love love.

At least that happened today.

Otherwise, still the same.

I really, really need to sleep.